Pregnant with my miracle!

I dont think you can ever prepair yourself for the trials and frustrations of trying to conceive a child.

Some of us are lucky enough to conceive quickly with no complications, and some of us, well...not so much.

We are coming to the end of our third cycle of trying to conceive our sixth child. I am fairly certain that this cycle was not successful. And yes, even though 3 cycles is not a lot, it is still just as heartbreaking every time that my period shows.

Feel like a failure. Feel like my husbands surgery was a failure. Feel like maybe we just aren't meant to have another child. I know, I know, a little emotional. When you want something SO badly, and you truly have no control over the situation, it makes your mind and heart do funny things.

If I am not pregnant this cycle, I might as well count out next cycle too. I was stupid and booked a trip away right around the same time I will be ovulating. *sigh*

I am praying to God, and whoever else will listen that I am already pregnant. That I am carrying a child within me. Please...