oh the drama...

Well I have a whole saga on me! Lets see if I can give the shortened version....A few days before I got my bfp I was getting pains in my shoulder and down my chest a bit. I had read on the Internet(after I got my bfp), that it could be a sign of a tubal pregnancy. SO of course I freak out.This Wednesday I go to the ER with my concern. They did an u/s and baby(well just the sac at that point), was in my uterus nice and snug where she belonged. SO..phewww...all is OK with baby BUT...they decide(by my blood numbers), that I may have a blood clot in my left lung and that is what is causing me the pain. They can not run all the tests they would normally run because I am pregnant and they would cause harm to the baby. So going based on my blood counts, this is the prognosis they have come up with.Even though they can not say for sure that is what it is, they are treating me like it is a blood clot. Better safe than sorry. Because if they don't treat me, and it is a clot...well...it could kill me.So Wednesday and yesterday I got shots of lovenox, which is a anti coagulant. It will thin my blood and break up the clot. I questioned him about the drug and if it is harmful to baby and he told me that a lot of pregnant women have to have it when they are pg(for other reasons), and it is perfectly safe. I also questioned my neighbor who is a pharmacist and he researched it for me and said it is safe.I go back again today, and they will do my blood work again and see what my numbers are doing. If they decide that I need to continue treatment, I am pretty sure this will be something that I have to do every day my entire pregnancy. I think I cried for 2 days straight because of all of this. It just really scares me.Oh and the Dr said the cause of it...well it happens in pregnancy sometimes...1%...I think I need to go buy a lotto ticket!

Tired and loving it!

I think I am still in shock! I am absolutely thrilled! I am so blessed and lucky!

I of course have taken more tests. Well actually only one. So 4 in total. Thats not bad! So I have to share pictures of them all of course :)

So the one alone is 13dpo. And the three of them are 11, 12, and 13dpo :)

12dpo...

and what a beautiful sight to wake up to!!!

another view...

11dpo....

and....

7dpo...

And again, Im pretty sure its over. My lower back is killing me and Im getting that tingly feeling that assures me that its over again this cycle. I HATE THIS. I would be shocked if i was to get a bfp this month. All the signs, I thought for sure this would be it. Truly. And here I am again :(

Amethyst

Deena has been saying for months and months that she sees purple when she sees Victoria. Well I like pink better! lol She has also been saying the numbers 2 and 10 and 2 and 5. Which makes me think February 5, 2010. And I just realized YESTERDAY that the birthstone for February is amethyst. She has also seen that my Victoria is in connection some how to Jen having Maddy. We thought I would be finding out gender when Jen was having Maddy. Maybe, just maybe it was the conception of Victoria that was the connection.

I also Oed on Victoria day. What are the odds of that. There are SO many signs this month. SO many. Oh also I would be finding out gender the middle of Sept sometime. And September 16 is significant to Deena. Could be the day I find out she is a girl??

Praying to God, to the universe, praying praying praying...